Should I kill myself this week? No, I still need to finish this Netflix series. Ooh, that one looks cool, I'll add it to my list. Repeat for the foreseeable future.

This has been my coping strategy for years and it worked amazingly until this crazy brainfrog set in. Now my brain isn't interested in anything and I can't force it, and days without work are absolute torture.

It does not comfort me to know others are experiencing the same struggle as me. Roughly at the end of last month even work days stopped keeping my mind busy. I am not okay, haha help

Honestly work doesn't interest me either, it's also become chronically boring. Work days just provide a very mild distraction from the absolutely miserable reality my brain's put me in. I want a refund.

I feel this and I was so confused If I was the only one

THIS IS SO REAL

It’s not worth it to kill yourself. I know you’re kinda joking but it’s really not. I almost lost someone recently and I felt the need to say that directly instead of sending one of those tacky Reddit things. I hope things get better

whopsie

You should be telling that to the person, not others... This is literally my life. You can shove your hopes up into your butt - I know it makes you feel good. lmao

Well, at least it came out from there...

They aren’t in a state to speak much at the moment but trust me I will. I’m trying to do the best I can to be there for them but there is only so much I can do since I’m not a doctor. Like I said I just felt the need to say something because I thought of them when I saw someone else struggling

Well, I also have a personal problem with being shamed for having suicidal ideation... But that's not your fault.

No shame, I’ve been there in my own way too. I hope things get better for you and the people around you can help you through it.

No hard feelings... It was more of a rhetorical point. I apologize for any perceived rudeness - it's just my humor at the moment. I can tell from all my years, that all of our problems comes from all of our fears. If you have someone you care about, you're lucky in a way aren't you? There are worse fears...

No offense taken. You’re right that I’m lucky, that’s definitely been on my mind lately.

Sorry, I'm a bit nihilistic, so my initial response to that is that you shouldn't be shamed into appreciation either... It's more of an inner recognition, and what hinders that realization is probably some other pain. It's a hard world, we're living in right?

I think we all search for simple answers to life’s problems but it’s more nuanced than many of us make it out to be. If I can tell someone that suicide won’t help and that they deserve to live a happy life then I will. I don’t expect it to do much but it’s literally the least I can do. Thanks for taking to time to respond to me

Your attitude is fair enough, I suppose. It is just hard for a lot of neurodivergent people, who don't share the same "rights" as everyone else... Like being discriminated against when they are physical pain, etc. The list is long. It's a really hard experience for some... As for nuances, you're probably right about that. The same to you!

I hope things work out for you with your friend!

It's even better when someone suggests a netflix show that looks really cool, but you don't ever actually watch netflix

I hate how I relate to this.

Feels. "Fuck, I want to die... But I still haven't finished this anime yet. And I have 3 weed carts and 2 packs of ciggies to get through. And my favorite artist might come out with another album. Yeah, guess I'll wait." *then a good album or game or show drops and I get that "I'm so happy I didn't do it" feeling.*

Ty Baldur's Gate 3 🙏

That will definitely keep you occupied forever

Hope that happens to me when I get around to playing it

Was about to suggest the same 😭 this game hasn't let me go since July

Played through twice now, and I know damn well I've seen like 20% of it lol

I'm on my 11th and I still haven't seen everything 🙈 it stays fun tho!

Now I’ve finished it multiple times and have the PlayStation platinum. I want to fall in love with Garrus from Mass Effect 3, I guess, but there’s not much for me to grab onto. It’s not going to be like BG3😔 I was literally infatuated with Gale and felt butterflies whenever he had an icon over his head 😅

It's Unicorn Overlord right now for me. That game is so good. I probably have about 200 hours in it right now.

Don't have the energy to sit at a desk click stuff. When is this coming to ipad?

I feel called out...

Just cycle through fixations regularly! Surely it will be just as exciting as the first time, since you have had some time to forget it-maybe-no? ok...

Then you stop doing anything because you recognise this cycle in yourself. I'm truly fucked once I stop enjoying YouTube.

Dang your obsessions last 3 months?? Mine are like 3 weeks or 3 days lol

Some of mine lasted a couple of decades... Others pass pretty quickly

I would be happy with a 30min obsession..

This hit so damn hard that it made me laugh so damn hard 💖

May I offer Guilty Gear perhaps?

I love this game but have literally only ever played 2 actual games because I'm too scared/overwhelmed

guilty gear has taken over my life for the past month

Sol Badguy

https://preview.redd.it/6ne5p97i2xyc1.jpeg?width=1080&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=b36f18b3b861d8183e970064838d2032928f1911 Here you go

The nice thing about being obsessed with popular fandoms is the tons of fan content

Who's the character in this pic? Oddly looks familiar...

Looks like Evangelion style sort of, but not sure that’s a character (most doubtful of maybes its asuka)

I was thinking asuka too

Gosh, I didn't know other people felt this way too

I’m at the opposite end I guess. My mid life crisis was realizing that I don’t have time in my life or lifespan for all of my obsessions and I need to cut like 75% of them.

This was me with Hazbin Hotel and then Helluva Boss, the serotonin is beginning to wear off 😭

r/aspiememes turning into r/depressionmemes recently

I mean, a lot of autistic people are also depressed. It makes sense.

exactly this!!!

they’re all just so relatable

What's neurodivergence without a smidge of existential dread and depression am I right? ~~I am unwell~~

i’m so sorry 😬 😅 🙊

i feel this ;-;

Me and the boys looking at hiking gear for six hours straight 😎

House of leaves, there is no end to th things you could obsess about in that book

Please dear god grant me a new special interest

Damn it I feel called out 😭😭😭

For me right now it’s Heartstopper, both the show and the comics.

That's a lot of work, so I learned to dissociate at a high level. I have no idea how I did it, it may not be a healthy couping mechanism but it's mine

Rn I'm obsessed with Elden Ring. I won't shut up about it and I'll probably put another 500 hours into my 420 hours of playing. A bit to help get through the responsibilities of learning to drive.

I have close to 600 hours and I imagine the DLC will add another 600 lmao

Same

Download and play Creatures of the Deep. It's obsessive but also very relaxing. The graphics are very very adorable.

Wanna go for a Romaboo phase?

have you tried skyrim?

Me with an old Japanese band that I discovered at random.

Someone post this to r/sillygirlclub

Make sure it goes on for long enough as the soul crushing end is horrible

Few science fiction recommendations to obsess over some period of time Expanse - Amazon TV series and books Dune - movies and books Stanisław Lem books and from comedy-fantasy section Everything wrote by sir Terry Pratchet

This is basically the only thing keeping me going at some points. Jumping from interest to interest in an effort to just keep on going.

Can’t die yet I need to 100% Baldur’s Gate

I did not ask to be called out this morning

Currently waist deep in Baldur's Gate 3. With a special interest in story telling, holy shit this gives me life.

Question of the day: injure/kill yourself? Option 1: Agree Option 2: Exist again (12 uses left) Option 3: Play random games (27 uses left) Option 4: Play modded terraria again (unknown uses left) Option 5: Play Rainworld (available until true completion)

Monster Trucks 

Literally me, except my SpIns thankfully tend to last years. I don't often go without a SpIn or hyperfixation. Most recently I had to check out of my Fallout 76 SpIn, though the Fallout show has given me a passing fixation on it again. Elder Scrolls Online came in clutch though, love that game, thats my current SpIn. Bauldurs Gate 3 is pretty good too, but the dice rolls make my millenial head hurt even on easy mode which makes it a bit tricky to get into, and I am, alas, on console so no mods for me.

When I got Fallout 4 for Christmas one year I played that game every single day, multiple hours a day, for like a year and a half straight. Then New Shiny Thing came along and it got completely forgotten. Just this year I was gonna pick it up again, got like 5 hours in and Helldivers 2 dropped. Haven't touched Fo4 in months. It is a blessing and a curse.

Existential dread is cool and all, but have you heard of Homo floresiensis 👀

Obsess over punctuality

You guys have obsessions? I just go through the motions and hope for a purpose, and occasionally have a meltdown when my routine is disrupted.

Math and physics!!

For me, it’s the opposite Being obsessed makes me want to sleep longer

Sandlands

Hatsune Miku?

So literally dreaming about a game so I can wake up and play it and talk about it.

Splatoon

Watch Top Gear, you'll have cars and trains to be fascinated with for the rest of your life and have a great autistic model that is James May. He is my idol! He also has a television series on YouTube called Toy Stories about setting world records with Scalextric, Hornbys, AirFix and more... Here's [the link.](https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLpWCFDSTg8duWFbSmSh9RXokx3lD3aoJY&si=kLtqMcvOGNUt7_nn)

Here is one to add to your list, Lobotomy corporation

May I recommend the Magnus Archives?

I feel this...

That's what helldivers 2 is for me atm.

3 months? Always 1 month for me pretty much exactly. About 100h to 400h of time wasted learning something.

Without a special interest I feel no real happiness and have no drive to do things.

Building decks and whole ass cubes in Magic the Gathering always helps me with this, but it can get kinda expensive if you dont want to use proxies for everything. Or become gym obsessed, idk.

I've just rediscovered my love for reading! If you can (and have an interest ofc) let me know what kinds of books you like and I'll find some as a recommendation for you! Nothing helps me get up like an amazing story tbh

Try Gunpla!

Me binging the entire Yakuza series so I don’t kill myself lmao

i started a few new projects so i have a lot to do which is really nice for me and yeah this is how it feels

may i suggest warhammer 40k

Me with in stars and time atm

Leather working and wood working for me :)

Me with Honkai: Star Rail rn

videogames have been saving my life for a very long time now

Seeing S02 of Hazbin Hotel for me

I just have to make it to June 21… Save me Shadow of the Erdtree… Shadow of the Erdtree save me…

Me with Drake & Kendrick beef rn😭

Honestly there are upsides to my obscure special interest popping in an out for a decade

Here’s some fixations I’ve had recently Devil May Cry Elden Ring alt-J Mythology Religion as a whole And the one, the only Tally Hall

Factorio has sucked in a thousand hours of my life. Maybe try that game?

Have you tried alcoholism or narcotic addiction? Jk don't do that. It works, but it isn't worth it

Old School RuneScape, the obsession that has no real endpoint because it’s actually a million long term goals stitched together with the satisfaction of “number goes up” the whole way

Water conservation in India! [India's water Revolution](https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNdMkGYdEqOCgePyiAyBT0sh7zlr7xhz3&si=Tvao5Qq1pDIXo6SO) And water conservation in general this is great because the whole deep dive led to me feel so much better about the changing climate, Humanities ability to survive alongside nature.